Missing home.

Barely a week after I came here to Singapore, I can't help but miss home. Literally speaking, I was treated like a princess my entire life, and now, I have to do everything... BY MYSELF. And be by myself most of the time.

I've been here twice, both for more than a week or so, and I'm not really having a hard time adjusting to their way of living. I can commute alone, go to the grocery, or even play at Time Zone to pass time. But it's just different, especially when you know you can't go back home anytime you want. When you see things you wanna buy for special people in your life, either friends or family, and know that even if you do buy them, you have no means of giving it to them right away.

Independent living takes a little time to get used to, I know. But it's just so much harder when you're alone in a foreign land.

>_<

Online shopping sucks!... when you're ordering from the Philippines.

Last March, I ordered a few stuff from the internet because I was aching to try out these Japanese cosmetics and the like that are very popular in Asia (that you unfortunately can't get in any store in the Philippines). I was excited because the website I ordered from wouldn't charge me anything for the shipping, which usually costs at least a thousand bucks.

A few days after I placed my order, of course, I was expecting the package anytime soon. But when it came, it was not a box, but a freaking NOTICE CARD that states that I have to pick it up in Pasay, which is sooooooooo far from where I'm living. But because I really wanted to get my hand on those goodies, I did some research on how to get there... and found out along the way that I have to pay about 22% of the total amount of the products for taxes. WTF.

And so after a month, I finally went to the Philpost Office to claim the items. I came there thinking I won't pay more than a thousand bucks because the items are worth about P3,500 in total, meaning 22% = P770. But to my disbelief, i was charged P1,400!

Syempre, wala na kong magagawa. I was already there. I have no choice but to pay. So I payed and went home.

Fuck you customs.

I know we have laws and all, but it's just too much. I read somewhere na lately lang nila pinatupad yung mga tax tax na yan, or kung meron dati, hindi ganun kalaki. I remember the last time I bought something from the internet, it was delivered directly to our house. But that was a long time ago.

Maybe I wouldn't be too pissed off if they just delivered it to our house, even if I have to pay the delivery guy for the taxes. Hindi yung pupuntahan ko pa sa sobrang layong lugar, na sobrang init at wala pang aircon. Sobrang abala.

Writing this post riled me up. I know.

Fuck you still, Bureau of Customs. Ain't taking that back.

=p

Relationships.

While browsing my Facebook account's news feed, I came across this song that really made me sad. It has something to do with long distance relationships, and though I'm currently not in one, just listening to the song made me feel like I'm actually far away from somebody I love.

Well, this comes from a woman's point of view, but guys, what's wrong with you? Is it that hard to make a woman feel loved? And I'm not just talking about long distance relationships here, mind you. You just make us feel special at the early part of the relationship. But after a while, what? You treat us like doormats. You don't answer our calls or reply to our texts. We go online to chat with you but you don't, even if you know that we're waiting. You always leave us hanging. Then you tell us to stop nagging, na nasasakal kayo, etc etc. and then BAM! It's over. For completely fucked up reasons.

Can't you understand? We just want to be a part of your day. We want you to think of us, even for just a while. We want you to know that amidst our busy schedules, we are thinking about you. We want to spend time with you, even just in thought.

When you think about it, women can really be a pain in the ass. I admit, we sometimes are. But do you know why women nag? Because of the unanswered calls and texts. The emails with no response. The cold/silent  treatment. So whose fault is it then? Is it us? Or you? I'd say both. So stop telling us crap or making lame excuses just to end a fucking relationship. Just STOP LYING.

I highly believe that a relationship isn't just about love, but more about choices. Love will not always be there, because honestly, it fades away. But if you choose to fall in love over and over again with that one person, then, congratulations! You're in a RELATIONSHIP.

A relationship should always be an effort from both parties. Even if a woman or a man is head over heels for you right now, and will follow everything you say, it wouldn't always be like that. Nakakapagod din ang maghintay. Nakakapagod umasa. Nakakapagod maging sunud-sunuran. So please, guys/girls, take care of your loved one. Don't make her/him feel like she/he's not part of your priorities. Learn to reply to her/his messages every once in a while, don't keep her/him waiting. If there's a problem, talk it out. Don't let small things ruin your relationship. Learn to give, not just take. Be honest. And most importantly, just love her/him.

[To everyone who's wondering, this post isn't about me. I'm fairly happy with the relationship I am in right now. I just felt like some people should be reminded of these things. Who knows, someone might read this that'll make him/her decide to make the relationship work right? I hope. I hate sad endings. *sigh*]